Monday, April 28, 2008

phobia arise wen it come
ppl hu knw me well should have knw tat i will av phobia of gals esp to those hu i not close to
i will tense to sit away frm them or in class i will move to another seat totally
still rmb wen i was in sec sch e chem lesson by prema i was asked to sit beside elieen
during chem lesson i will move both e chair & table to at least 1 hand space inbetween us & we seldom even communication wif each other tot we sat beside....she will ask m i tat scary till uu must move so far away frm me ma?? i wil alway smile n reply no la.. then continue to listen to lesson even tot she keep asking bt i nv tell her
those hu sat beside e area will knw tat..example wenjing & etc
guess tat e phobia had arise after being hurted badly this time
as ytd while working, gal customer told me e order i was like stand further n further away
tat y i was damn quiet at nite...as almost all gal customer yytd nite
this secret i guess no1 knew it... no even my family member know them... nor brian knw tat
i had this phobia since pri 6 tat time, i spent a great time to wipe it of frm my soul & heart
despite all e hardwork this few yrs, for 5 yrs i almost overcome it liao.... bt it came back totally to me..haiz...nw chat wif gal gt e scare scare phobia.... guess tat this time i had a tough time to remove it as i m hurt badly in heart & soul................cold sweat will ever broke out while chatting wif gal, hand tembling badly..haiz...


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