Monday, June 30, 2008

Another update of wat happen ytd
went to celebrate hx & nick birthday
happy birthday to both of u
we(hx,kh,yt,jack,nick,hema,leanna,jk) arrange to meet up at marine square at 2pm outside yuki yaki
bt all e guys were late n onli started ur eating at 3pm nia
jk & nick were ee latest
we had ur lunch buffet till 5 pm
after which we went to sky garden to cut e birthday cake
as usual birthday boi & gal had to use their mouth to remove e candle frm e cake
haha...after which we went to e arcade
it had been months since i last play e bb machine :)
me & jackson had great fun there...wish i could have e bb machine at hm ^dreaming^
after which went to e convention centre n tour arnd till around 8 n all wanted to go hm
i was like huh?? so early going hm?? cuz i dnt wish to go hm tat early la
bt haiz...so went to take bus hm
we all took bus 195 to tiong while hema took bus 961 alone
we all took to tiong n brought bubble tea
then after i brought mine yt ask me go over
then pass her e drink & she drank it
i was like omg!! bt nvm..
haha...after which went to Kopitiam
chat till 10 pm then we went hm after tat

As for ttoday went to vivo city wif to watch movie
we went to watch e movie (10 promise to my dog)
it is a great movie i almost cry out bt didnt not bt nv
if i will to rate e movie i think i will give e movie 4 star out of 5 star
haha... learn some stuff frm e movie
promise r meant to be kept &
dont wait till thing is gone then start to regret cuz it will be too late &
treasure ur love 1 wen they r at ur side dont wait till they r gone then start to regret cuz everything is over by e time u find out tat how impt they r
after e movie went to my ex working place to look for e staff there bt didnt stay there for long as both boss were there
then we went to mini toon to buy present for li ting
after which we went hm as still gt alot to catch up for study
jia you!!


Don't Leave Me Alone In This Lonely World
9:30 AM


Friday, June 20, 2008

hehe.. i m back agn
due to last nite cant manage to slp in
so i was thinking abt wat i had been doing n read through my blog frm start rite frm e first post
i feel tat i was really stupid abbt those past of myself
really silly
then after reading i rmb wat rongrong said( pray hard tat she nv c her nickname here )
*praying hard*
dont always hold on to the pass and move on
if you dont let it go, you'd never be able to move on in life
if you always hold on, you'd always be at the same spot
haha...guess tat it time to let go n start a new (:
tmr shall mark my big day
jia you!!!!


Don't Leave Me Alone In This Lonely World
12:45 AM


Thursday, June 19, 2008

i shall give it a short blog here
ytd went back to sch to do e law project wif my grp member
wen i reach school i gave jennier a call as i knw tat she confim in some part of the school doing her project research material..hardworking sia..dont wonder gpa 3.69 la
i finally understand liao..
haha
then we both wait outside e library for e rest to come meanwhile we both chat
n bet tat grp leader n another guy sure will be here in dargonboat t shirt
n we both guess correctly (:
so we waited n waited till 2.05 ur grp leader was finally here
we went to tp library lvl 7 to do ur project
meanwhile while they looking for e material i was looking arnd e library
i saw chen er tsk mango
omg!! she look so different frm last time maybe due to makeup i guess e eye shadow & etc..
so i almost cant recongise her at all la
back to project, doing halfway e project smell come rite into my nose
e smell of FOODS which make my stomach go groaning for food
so me n jennifer went to design canteen for western foods
first time sia went to eat wif a gal onli...Zzzzz
then l8r after we ate we head back to library for project till 4++
i took bus home while i call up jack,hy,jk,yt,wilson kong for pool at nite 8pm
aso i call up my gan ma
she was like blur blur 1 n asking hu m i ??
lol.. t after chatting a while she rmb liao...i was thinking heading toward bm ntuc for her to meet her up bt she was working nite shift frm 10pm till 6 am
so did not went to look for her n went back hm
so slack at hm watching tv
arnd 7.15 jack call me
i was like omg!! so fast?? dont tell me tat he dont wan to go liao..
so he said i m ready to leave e house nw
i immediate rush out of e house n head for bus stop
we meet up n went to arcade for a while
did some racing game as e bb machinethere was remove :(
soon at 8 we went back to pool nn open a table for us
soon hy came in, we play n play
then something shocking happen
i saw gan ma at there??
i was like wth... i rush out n she was like so happy to meet me up n hug me
she was like in her sexy clothes dancing at dance floor
we did some chatting n we both agree to buy 4D
2038,0832,9456,2359
this four number..okya shall ask my mummy help me buy l8r
hope she can give me some luck n win some $$
wahaha... bt while running out i sprank my backbone n it hurts due to i jump stair
sian....
so after which back to playing pool
i saw my gan jie , hy aso saw her as we same pri school
still rmb her ma ?? tat gal hu borrow $450 frm me ?? lied abt kana rape n get pregnant ??
she change totally frm head to toe
she nw is like a ^ sl*t ^
frm e way she talk n dress n etc
dont wish to mention much..dirty my blog
at arnd 10.30 yt came n play 2 round of 2 vs 2
me n jack won both round
l8r we head to mac for some foods while my friend call n i take away food n head back hm


Don't Leave Me Alone In This Lonely World
1:12 PM


Monday, June 16, 2008

Happy father day to all e father in e world
it is nw like 5am in e early morning sia
u guys must be thinking y m i not slpping yet bt e fact is tat i juz woke up
i found tat everything in my house is fake
despite i lock up my hp wif the security code
some1 in my house manage to crack open e code
i went to slp arnd 11 ytd nite n leave my hp in general mode bt wen i woke up at 5am my hp is in slient mode wif msg which i nv even read b4 in my inbox (read by someone)
after knwing tat i feeling kind of unsafe i immediate change my security code
i guess tat someone dont nid to said aso can knw hu tat liao...confirm is my sister
dont she knw tat privacy ma??
i guess tat all my msg inbox was read by her
i really started to hate her alot nwaday as she really being a pester to me
she had been talking abt her sux *band* stuff & etc
which i nt keen to heard tat all make my ear dont even have e peace
then wen nite turn she will start to follow me to rm while i using my laptop to play n listen to music she will alway be at her bed acting to read her comic bt spying on wat i doing online
i really wan to av some privacy alone???
cant she understand ma ???
cant she juz leave me alone n leave my hp alone & dont touch it at all ma ???
i feel so unsafe nw till i cant even slp at all
hais....................... i wan to av a rm of my own asap!!!!!!
i cant stand it anymore liao........ going mad soon
i swear wen i get my rm (locked up) or a flat
(i wont let my sister move in at all n door wont nv welcome her in!!!!)
nw i trying to get back to slp bt it is hard as she is turning arnd at below at e double deck bed
as i knw tat she is already awake


Don't Leave Me Alone In This Lonely World
8:41 PM


Saturday, June 14, 2008

This few day had been addictted to songs sang by 李圣杰
song like 最近,癡心絕對,手放開 & lastly 擦肩而过
i found tat this few song writter very nice as when they reveal tat e writter had been all this love relationship trouble & pain & sorrow
e best is tat 李圣杰 sang tat which out e feeling of e song n every word deep impression inside my mind cuz i had aso been through (will highlight those word in red)
if u guys can go youtube watch those MV for this few song
really nice n touching

李圣杰-最近
你最近不说话
怎麽了为什麽
是不是有什麽事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的
我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
你最近不说话
怎麽了为什麽
是不是有什麽事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的
我却不能够给你我全部
我能给
的却又不是你想要拥
有的我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
爱我却不能给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
这一次我们都能很幸福

李圣杰 痴心绝对
想用一杯latte把你灌醉
好让你能多爱我一点
暗恋的滋味你不懂这种感觉
早有人陪的你永远不会
看见你和他在我面前
证明我的爱只是愚昧
你不懂我的那些憔悴
是你永远不曾过的体会
为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解
我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切
你又狠狠逼退我的防备
静静关上门来默数我的泪
明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲
曾经我以为我自己会后悔
不想爱得太多痴心绝对
为你落第一滴泪
为你作任何改变
也唤不回你对我的坚决

李圣杰 手放开
我把自己关起来只留下一个阳台
每当天黑推开窗我对着夜幕发呆
看着往事一幕一幕
再次演出你我的爱
我把电视机打开听着别人的对白
也许那些故事可以给我一个交代
你要的爱我学不来
眼睁睁看情变坏人怔怔看情感概
不能给你未来我还你现在
安静结束也是另一种对待
当眼泪流下来伤已超载
分开也是另一种明白
我给你最后的疼爱是手放开
不要一张双人床中间隔着一片海
感情的污点就留给时间慢慢漂白
把爱收进胸前左边口袋
最后的疼爱是手放开
不想用言语拉扯所以选择不责怪
感情就像候车月台有人走有人来
我的心是一个站牌写着等待
最后的疼爱是手放开
我把收音机打开听着别人的失败
啃咽的声音仿佛诉说着相同悲哀
你的依赖还在胸怀
我无法轻易推开我无法随便走开
感情中专心的人容易被伤害

i finally make out my last step liao
i quitted my jobs at vivo liao
(jobless now)
it is all over
ytd while at vivo saw douglas cds gal(friend) wif someother of her classmate together
even tot i dont knw her name bt she notice me as i said tp out n she turn n look
bt she cant rmb me as we onli saw each other for juz once onli bt wen i mention douglas name she rmb liao...tat a bit weird weird
so at nite wen i reach hm, had a chat wif douglas as he happen to online
i being kpo so asked him y he nv stead with her??
after been pester by me
he finally said it out...she is his ex stead
i was like omg!! wen they ever started sia???
after which he told me his love story n how it ended
is tat gal not ready not enter into a relationship i guess??
bt douglas u shd be happy at least she give u a chance to be together wif her
depite i m gone she aso wont knw n wont even msg me nor chat wif me
she wont even said a word to ask me to stay (U)
despite tot e time is not really long bt i bet both of u truely in love & enjoy e process of love
she is a nice & gd gal
wait for her n be there to help her wen she nid help
1 day she will truely understand tat u love her frm e botton of e heart n both of u can be back together (:
god bless u two




Don't Leave Me Alone In This Lonely World
1:45 PM


Wednesday, June 11, 2008

喜欢与爱的分别‏

喜欢是，希望寂寞的时候，无聊的时候， 伤感的时候，找个人说说话。
爱是，在任何时候都想跟他分享， 快乐的时候甚至希望把所有快乐都给了他。
喜欢是，在很久很久没联络的时候， 接到他的电话，然后笑着听他说话。
爱是，在几天没有联络的时候，着急得的打电话给他， 然后忍住眼泪笑一笑。

喜欢，只有在一起的时候，才惦记着对方。
爱，是哪怕是在一起，每一秒钟也都在思念思念他。
喜欢一个人，多许多朋友，也会觉得快乐。
爱一个人，是多一个人，都会难受的两个人的世界。
喜欢一个人，是甜腻的。
爱一个人，是苦尽甘来的。

喜欢一个人，在一起的时候会很开心
爱一个人，在一起的时候，会莫名的失落
喜欢一个人，你不会想到你们的将来
爱一个人，你们常常在一起憧憬明天

喜欢一个人，在一起的时候永远是欢乐
爱一个人，你会常常流泪喜欢一个人，当你们好久不见，你会突然想起他
爱一个人，当你们好久不见，你会天天想着他

喜欢一个人，当你想起他，你会微微一笑
爱一个人，当你想起他，你会对着天空发呆 喜欢一个人，你会想他有了孩子，你一定会很喜欢 爱一个人，会有一天，你突然很好奇：将来我们的孩子会是什么样子

喜欢一个人就是希望大家都开心
爱一个人希望他会更开心

喜欢一个人，你要得只是今天
爱一个人，你期望的是永远

喜欢一个人，是看到了他的优点
爱一个人，是包容了他的缺点

当你站在你爱的人面前,你的心跳会加速
但当你站在你喜欢的人面前,你只感到开心

当你与你爱的人四目交投,你会害羞
但当你与你喜欢的人四目交投,你只会微笑

当你与你爱的人对话,你觉得难以启齿
但当你和你喜欢的人对话,你可以畅所欲言

当你爱的人哭,你会陪她一起哭
但当你喜欢的人哭,你会技巧的安慰她.

当你不想再爱一个人,你要闭上眼睛并忍着泪水
当你不想再喜欢一个人,你只要掩住双耳!

喜欢，是一种心情
爱，是一种感情
喜欢，是一种直觉
爱，是一种感觉
喜欢，可以停止
爱，没有休止

喜欢一个人，特别自然
爱一个人，特别坦然
喜欢一个人，有时候盼和他在一起
爱一个人，有时候怕和他在一起

喜欢一个人，不停的和他争执
爱一个人，不停的为他付出
喜欢一个人，希望他可以随时找到自己
爱一个人，希望可以随时找到他

喜欢一个人，总是为他而笑
爱一个人，总是为他而哭
喜欢，是执着
爱，是值得

喜欢就是喜欢，很简单
爱就是爱，很复杂
喜欢你，却不一定爱你
爱你，就一定很喜欢你

其实，喜欢和爱仅一步之遥
但，想要迈这一步
就看你 是喜欢迈这一步
还是爱迈这一步

copyrite ♥ tEnshi ♥aka Pauline


Don't Leave Me Alone In This Lonely World
2:52 PM



coperite frm tenshi jie
i nv ask her for it juz take n paste here hope tat she wont blame me
i nw currently in e stage 3
love someone hu dont even love me at all :(
no word can describe e pain


Don't Leave Me Alone In This Lonely World
12:21 AM


Sunday, June 8, 2008

Guess tat i m e first to blog on wat happen ytd nite
went out at 8pm off to tiong to meet up wif fran,jack,hy,hx
i reach there at 8pm n went to eat at lvl 3 due tto i nv eat my dinner at hm
went off to eat korean set...bbq chicken nv change forever
meanwhile at mrt to bedok saw debbie my ex cds classmate
after eat finish went to bedok int n take bus number 16 to ecp
rented 8 bike in total then wait n wait till 11.30 while by sm,kh reach here
by e time they reach, we r already sleppying liao
so we set off asap to changi village bt at first we went to bedok jeffy first to meet up wif johnathon as he gt to lead e way to changi village as we not sure abt e route even tot we been there 2 time liao...
we cycle n cycle till arnd 2 we reach changi village
me,jack.hy went off to cheer to but instant noodle to eat, meanwhile aso buy some ALC to drink..drink abit then jack face start to turn red liao...haha... bt nice drink...shd drink more next time.... e feeling of getting drunk even tot onli 5%+ another drink is 10%
bt i onli drink abit onli...bt i knw tat get drunk liao then will numb myself n forget everything
meanwhile my mei call me liao....half cycle half chatting on phone
u wont beileve it sia.... we chat for at least 1 hrs....haha...she told me alot of thing tat had been happening bt to my special she aso knw tat i kana rejected by another gal???
i was like cant be ar??i aso nv tell her n nether she gt my blog url??
shocked.. bt nvm she alway can read wat i m thinking abt...after during term test she accompany me throughout e nite wif msg....really a big thank to her...
then chat n chat we chat until her jie there n knw tat stead aso gt part time n full time stead
i was like WTH................gal ar...really cmi..i shall not trust gals agn even stead aso can have part time & full time...haiz.............
after which we cycle to e guy hu lead us e way
we went to his house nearby to play poker card & drink agn
this time round is 40% ALC bt i dont dare to drink liao...due to l8r still av to cycle back to ecp
haha..we leave his house nearby park arnd 6 plus n set off back to ecp
we arnd 7.30 reach back ecp...tired n backside pain like hell...
we took bus back hm....n fran habit was back agn..taking pic liao....hope tat when i was slpping she didnt manage to take my pic....tired & tired nw i shall go back into coma slping world...
ass is in great pain sia.... cant dont admit tat i m getting older & older as days pass..
i nid time for excerise sia...


Don't Leave Me Alone In This Lonely World
10:35 PM


Thursday, June 5, 2008

Finally e 4 paper had pass i nw really stress abt those 4 paper sia...bt i guess i nv do well for all of them cuz last min work dont work for me anymore even tot each day i onli slept for 3 hrs nia..nw i m down wif heavy eyelid n big eye bag liao wif numbers of pimple coming out on my face...wat can i do abt it...bt finally it is all over
this 4 nite i was really grateful to 1 ppl
becuz of her she drove me up to study at nite frm 1am all e way till 5am
luckily gt her wake up n her msg to keep me accompany throught those quiet nites & prevent me frm falling aslpping.... really thankalot....
everytime at my exam i will have problem with my problem stomach n my heart will feel really unconfortable to slp
since i knw her till nw arnd 3 yrs liao ba... everytime during exam she will accompany me wif msg n each of her msg make me tat at least some1 still care n concern abt me
she can dont even slp e whole nite n be there for me in msg..... really a big thank you
even tot i dont even have barely have chance to c her at all..even tot she live so near my block...................


Don't Leave Me Alone In This Lonely World
8:12 PM