Sunday, November 28, 2010

it has been really really long since i last blog
i almost forget tat i still have a blog till i heard a old song - 記事本
i seriously dunn knw where to start
yea enlisted to army on 4 june 2010 ptp batch as i didnt clear my ippt tat y went in 2 month early after which the bmt batch came in on 28 july and officially grad from bmt on 1 oct 2010 got into my vocation of boatman and demo man
currently still undergoing the last phrase of boatman before getting into company line
till nw i still very very confuse how come i enter commando unit
yes maybe to other commando unit is those unit they long wish to enter bt for me i just wan to be a common people in the world just like other who enter tekong
instead of being uncommon ppl in uncommon place
somehow i felt glad tat i escape the digging of grave and slp in
i seriously feel the tiredness inside my body nw from head to toe
i felt tat last time in platoon 3 det 1 still e same at least i still gt my buddy derrick to chat with when i in time of trouble and needs
still rmb e date in outfiled after me and derrick pitch up the tent
we lay down and chat with each other till almost 11pm
3 hrs of chats
later he went into leader course and currently in taiwan
bt nw in demo&boatman course there is really noone to chat with (heart to heart talk)
Yes i knw that it may have been 5 month of army bt i still nt used to it totally
everyweekend is like being wasted by me as i didnt spend it meaningful beside slping and sometime a drink from pub with wilson kong
i really wish that there is someone there when i was down someone who is willing to lend me her shoudler to cry on or lay on
bt i knw tat the person dunn realy exist in my life
i guess enough of army stuff and emoing stuff le
During 5month army journey i brought a insurance which i didnt even thinking of buying it at all at this age bt yet i still brought it every month suck my $$ away as usual bt nvm cause who knw what happen the very very next moment i may died off

Thinking back of the past i seriously felt tat i really a fool
Y did i give up my study and gpa for a girl whom is nt worth my love
causing me till i cant even enter local uni
yea alots of my friend said tat i am a fool
nw thinking of it i seriously felt tat i am a fool
yet till today i still holding on
i still dunn have e courage to delete her fb&msn&hp number
i really wish tat wilson or the other will see this blog post and take my hp away to deleted away all her information once and for all
i am really tiredd give me a break & set me freeeeeee & free from tearss & pain
anyone out there to help me??


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