Monday, March 9, 2009

I know tat i dint blog for sometime as so much things had happen this few days
i aso dunn really rmb them in detail as for which day it happen
firstly my hp spoilt as it cant be switch on anymore n i didnt send it for repair as i really give up on tat nokia hp which i just brought it for like arnd 1 yrrs nah
i lost some of my friend contact inside
anw i worked for e past few day at jelita shopping mall from last friday till ytd
i douth ppl knw where is it located unless u always go holland road
well... tat place really sux
there dunn have food court nor mac
wen u hungry really gt no place to buy foods to eat beside 7-11
so i starve myself on friday didnt eat breakfastt lunch onli ate my dinner at niight
Working there really knw how this working world really nt as easy as wat i think it was
it totally different and friendship really can be seen as no1 bother to buy me foods for e first day after i contacted 5 friends
i given up
as for e second day i take away foods from home to work at 7.30
after work i headed for jackson house to ask him to store song inside my itouch
chat at his room for nearlly 2 hrs+++
arnd 9 plus someone call n was crying on e phone n i didnt have e contact inside my hp
at first i tot it was ghosst or prank call bt ltr found out tat it was michelle
omg!! she was warded to hospital
i was shock n worry as it was first time i heard her cries out of 4 yrs i knw her
so i went to hospital to visit her e next day right after my work at 7.30
accompany her for anrd 1 hrs n left my itouch for her to listen to song so tat she wont be tat boring
for friend hu saw this maybe thinking me n her is tat relationship
bt nope i treat her as little sister or i can said tat i can trust her more than others gal out there
i knw tat i ever been said by jan & tenshi jie before
y i dunn open my heart n share out e secret inside my heart
in e fact i didnt really open out my heart out to my friends esp gals
cause i dun trust n believe in them
if u really wan me to rank them out from e most trust till e least trust
1.tat gal whom i dun knw her name yet bt i see her from my house everyday
2tenshi,xinmei,yiwen,caterine,eugenia,cuimin
3.jan,meiqi,bugis,michelle,jennifer
4.tat grp of sec sch grp which i hang out with
5. the rests of e gals

There was once i opened my heart fully to a girl. we did not have any secrets between each other but sadly in the end i got hurt as things dont always happen the way we want.
despite having a wounded heart, i still tried my very best to trust another girl again. but similarly i am still hurt.
i just want to have a simple and plain love but it seems so hard to achieve.
now, my heart is feeling worse as salt has been added to my wounds. and it really hurts alot..
why every girl i met are the same? - they would always use the word 'wait' as an excuse. dont they know it hurts?


Don't Leave Me Alone In This Lonely World
8:16 PM

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