Saturday, May 31, 2008
ii cant beileve it myself man tat i will said all this crap to ppl cuz normally is ppl said tat to me bt nw is my turn to said it to some1 esle feel uneasy cuz i knw tat i shd not said it out too clearly orelse friendship may juz be over soon..i actually ask her to study ???? maybe is becuz of those die si chuan student who bring it out all... after i saw e news tat those died student die with their pencil holding tighly on their hand....
As e day passes even e feeling is alway fading away...maybe wat leonardine said abt me was true after all....she said tat "last time e me was those inoccent type very very serious abt a relationship bt wen e time pass , e passion will fade n nw after experience n c other ppl relationship... i started to lose faith in a relationship n wont be serious to any more relationship & those trust whom i used to trust was all gone"
i guess onli she understand me tat well despite she onli knw me for 3 yrs this yrs due to is my sister friend..
well..maybe tat it liao...........i shd not pin too much on a relationship much well place them on my study instead after all time can erase all this painful days & hurtful days i been through
well....life go on i went to try out at e new shop liao... it was far too good liao b4 start work gt foods special cook by chef for us to eat after work aso gt other friend cook by chef & somemore e boss was so nice sia...let us take ice cream to eat & those fruit drink aso can drink as u like
omg... wat a nice shop...i will treasure it even tot those ppl working there e action like gay?
let hope tat i wont change into a gay ba ??? if i do give me a tigh slap on my face
i shd be studying for today n tmr bt e fate is tat i cant control myself to sit down for hrs so very 30 min will feel uneasy n start to move arnd liao...
my friend was going down on her relationship stuff as for her name i shall not mention it here bt nw she finally understand how i was feeling at tat time..juz hope tat she will get over wif it s00n...e longer it drag e more painful it will be....
haiz....we both belong to e same boat of ppl liao....had a small chat wif her juz nw
she said tat she trying to retain to msg tat guy n chat wif him for today while she saw him online n well i guesss tat guy aso wont notice her n chat wif her... as i happen to be in her shoe b4
she trying to test out how much she worth in tat guy heart bt she fail n get hurt n trying to use study to cover e painful stuff...
juz tell me y man??
ytd nite was another nite after work reach hm then start to watch tv show till 1.30am
e show abt love....those actor leave a gd impression iin my head abt keepiing their promise to each other n they really care n concern abt each other till death put them away
e story of e last finger hock up together was told in e show i will rmb it clearly up inside my head
after which i went into youtube to watch 超级星光大道 23/5/08
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AT4GrNl5nzY really go nice go view it!!!!
e most touching part 李伯恩 (hero) infornt of all e tv viewer tell jia ying tat he love her
n even tot jia ying rejected him twice b4 bt at least this 3rd time jia ying give him chance
how touching is it rite?? even tot he cant into e top 10 :( so i guess tat i try more than 3 time liaoi shd av wake up of this dream cuz she nv even notice abt me nor chat wif me firstit is time to let e wind take away those feeling
Don't Leave Me Alone In This Lonely World
11:28 PM
Thursday, May 29, 2008
life was a mess up totally sia
i dont have enough of slp nor enough time to watch my taiwan show & etc
i really dont knw how my week had be spend
n next week is my term test already i m so dead la i havent even started to prepare for it at all due to e overloadiing of project on hand la...
nw already my head is loaded with those project tat i had to do during e coming 2 week holiday & thinking of whether shd i leave my work place cuz i really cant stand it already
dont wan to mention it orelse i confirm cant slp at all
Some moment happen liao..
i receive back my e math 3 guess wat i score 17/20 , telpri i score 14/20 due to e careless i make :( as for modani i score 9/10
nw every1 in class is like montioning my grade like tat
haiz...hate tat feeling they will keep asking ffor my result & etc
aiyo i really nv study for my study wat it really by luck i score them
dont like tat...life is really a pain wif ur guys(classmate) keep on abt my result
dont worry la i wont take away ur class positon & neither m i a trreat to ur all
then zhang le was unhappy since monday due to my modani result
hinting me tat w/o his help in e study i wont pass my study at all & my grade wont win him
man!! he is damn fking wrong abt it liao...dont make me get mad i can chiong for 1 whole nite just for study...he is tempping me to do & btw u aso nv teach me a all regardling of all subject
aso stress me abt project all this to be done this week...rushing me to do things
his aim was to make me dont have e time to study for e term test
haiz...........wat this world is becoming sia???
okay after thinking of abt 2 week going 3 week liao
i made up my decision liao.. i decided to leave my currently jobs due to e reason state last time
it is really stress up my life totally even tot very 6 of e monnth will get pa bt it is really tiring me
my energy n power r all drain off which cuz me dont av time to watch taiiwan show :(
oh ya did i menion tat wat happen during last sat during work
due to e afternoon there is not enough of ppl at work i was ask to work frm 3 till 11pm
n 5.30 was my break bt i leave at 5.38
which mean tat i gt 1 hrs of break so after i ate my dinner i went walking arnd at vivo
looking at those beautiful scence at lvl 3 alone & out of e sudden i think of Zul (last time my working friend) so i went seeking for e shop he work at
to my surprise e shop was great sia...totally well done bt very few ppl as its location of e shop nott gd ba
i went inside n take a look wif zul beside me
we both had a chat like 15 min n i went off wif his qns
he asked to go over his there to work pay will be $6 per hrs
kk so i went thinking abt it & listening to song n resting
arnd 6.20 brian rang me up n ask me to go down work immediate due to e crowd coming
so i sian sian walk down back to e shop la
then i was drinking my water & e boss said tat wan to eat go kitchen eat la
i was liike wth...drinking water onli ma dont av to scold rite
bt i was scolded after all..haiz... i hate being bllame for thing tat i nv do b4
meanwhile wen i was blogging here, gwynna blame me for nv reply her msg
is like adding fire to e oil
i was at e top of e fire tat moment n blow off my temper at her & send her harsh msg to her
Don't Leave Me Alone In This Lonely World
2:37 PM
Sunday, May 25, 2008
李圣杰-擦肩而过我爱着谁爱到我有点醉告诉我你是谁能够把我让我变不对你不会累但我却爱你爱得好累从没有为了谁不顾安危付出一切站在这平衡点我还是觉得有点危险或许是看不见只能够靠感觉他不会是个好男人也不会是个好情人你对我说我们只是擦肩而过好的男人有那么多少了他的日子也能过我不会再让你寂寞也不会让你更难过你听我说要好好学着去生活就算未来有多少错至少还有我的问候我的温柔陪你度过你听我说你不要这么做你不要看着我说你已经知道怎么做你很难受我愿意陪你一起承受只要你不怕痛再多坎坷我都陪你走站在这平衡点我还是觉得有点危险或许是看不见只能够靠感觉他不会是个好男人也不会是个好情人你对我说我们只是擦肩而过好的男人有那么多少了他的日子也能过我不会再让你寂寞也不会让你更难过你听我说要好好学着去生活就算未来有多少错至少还有我的问候我的温柔陪你度过他不会是个好男人也不会是个好情人你对我说我们只是擦肩而过好的男人有那么多少了他的日子也能过我不会再让你寂寞也不会让你更难过你听我说要好好学着去生活就算未来有多少错至少还有我的问候我的温柔陪你度过就算未来有多少错至少还有我的问候我的温柔陪你度过~~end~~
Don't Leave Me Alone In This Lonely World
1:41 PM
Monday, May 19, 2008
My life is totally pack up with study & working tat all i guess
even at e risk of losing all my sec friend at this timebt i guess wat jack said was rite wen u will to handle work & study u dont even have e additional time wif ur sec friend at allkk i admit tat as i last meet up was jack n wilson at wilson birthday party e rest i nv even meet up or can said tat i m withdrawing frm kakis member myself afterall i dont think i m part of it anymore liao..keeping a distance frm them liao cuz i feel tat there is no longer e word friendship at therehad a serious thought this few nites i see through e lights of all angel & devil liaomankind it is a devil of allsome example of life which i can name is tat last time gal A n guy B was not in gd term at all bt out wif e rest of e sec friend gal A will not ask guy A along at all..despite e rest of friend want to invite him along..bt gt stopped by gals Athen wen gals A nid help frm guy A she go back all into gd term wif guy A after sch hang out more often.... wat a life..... sick & tired of this of pplrealitly galsrecall life history on 16 maylife was a mess totally as i was totally at e edge of fire totally due to e shortage of manpowder at shop i was mad totally u knw wat happen ma??outside u knw tat there is 2 ppl working for 16 tablegt to clean e table & take order & serve f00ds & serve desertdue to too many customer at 1 time , my friend alvin who is outside wif me was ask to go inside to help out which mean tat all 16 table was left onli me doing it then i ask for bills for some table outside n excepted tat bills to be bring to me & i ask for a lot of times bills was not send out yet... i shouted into e walker for bills n guess wat e boss said to meu ask for bill dont u knw how to collect it urself ma?? follow by " u do big business half way dont knw to clean ur ass clean b4 leaving e toilet ar?after which he said agn u fk a gal then u wont clean ur sperm at her cb ar? "i was like very pised off liao... i shouted back at him... dont u knw tat outisde 16 table was manage by me onli ma ?? if i go inside hu will help u take order frm new customer & clean e table for u while u still gt e time to patol arnd e shop n dont ever bring e bill to me...some customer saw tat i was already trying my best to get their bills for them... bt no vaild lathey understand tat i m in a difficult spot so they nv complain abt me labt there is this trouble maker at table 100 as they keep on changing their order which make e lady boss mad n asked e manager to handle itafter which manger handle finish their table then table 92 ask e manager over n complain tat their bill was not send to them n complain tat i gt bad attiude to themi was like huh?? then manager repeated wat e boss said to me "mention at e top " then manager after work asked me , alvin out for nagging as i was throwing bad temper at e boss juz nw n alvin took wrong order as for today 17 maysame thing happen agn!! boss said e same sentence to me & outside was handle by me alone agn!!!! this time i give him no face at all i scolded him agnu knw wat? aso after i scolded him he had not guts to reply back all he do was to tell e manager to get back to me n scold me back??bt manager this time understand tat cuz i was at e edge of edge liao cuz i was really alone at outside wif 16 tables all occuiped!!!!tat y outside keep on having problem it is all becuz of u keep on asking me to run bill for u send coffee & cake for uu knw y ur shop wont ever do well cuz of e mangament tat u n lady boss set!!! wan to earn more $$ n lack of manpowder u think like tat ur shop can do well ma??in my mind i really wish to tell them u earn so much $$$ u think u die lia0 those $$ can bring to ur next life or bring it along to hell ar??wont even happen unless u change !!!! i swear tat e day i quit my jobs there i will said it out loudly inside of them !!!! despite gt customer or note more negative comment will be shown on e websites i can confirm it herekk enough of all angry stuff liao...still rmb tat 19 yrs old gal which i mention at e start of maykait finally won her over frm her ex bfgd jobs kiatoh ya almost forget 1 thing which i heard ytd frm a couple customer sia..u wont believe it siawen e guy of e couple went to toilet his gf make a call out to her friend i guessshe was chatting away abt her bf wif her friendsaiding tat e place they went to eat is really gd sea view la bt tat her bf was not romantic at allmaybe "I" shall break up wif him n go for another guys who asking her for stead!!after i heard tat i was like tat guys was so poor thing sia kana spilt leg by his gf haiz...gals really cant be trustednw even "her" i aso cant trust her word liao....afterall she let me down too many time liao...maybe can said tat her word had no more weight at all inside my mind & heartso call wait for her another 2 yrs...i began to douth it liao..maybe it is juz another fake hope given by her to me..all this is jut another lies given by her once agnno even trust & believe in her......once agn gt hurt agn..haiz... my heart is empty & hurted...i started to think abt mq nick stephen chow's movies...BEST MAN... i must learn how to forgive n forget in order to growso nw it is time to forget abt her & ask god to forgive for scolding those word to my boss as it is a moment of angry
Don't Leave Me Alone In This Lonely World
2:47 PM
Saturday, May 10, 2008
A flashback of wat happen
hmm... ytd my lessoon end at 6pm n i gt to go work by 7 so i was told by my friend tat take 65 will be faster than mrt
i beileve him & trust him
i went up e bus & after 45 min i still at dont knw wat kind of place sia
i was like so die off & i left wif juz 15 buck in my wallet cant possible take cab to vivo city confirm not enough due to 35% extra price
bt i gt no choice to take a cab to vivo bt wen i boarded e cab i told tat driver tat i onli gt 15 buck & asked him whether can make it to vivo ma
he said hmm... shd be 16 or 17 like tat bt nvm i will drive u there
he drove off....u not going to beileve it sia...he was driving at e speed of 120km/h
i was like wow!! tat fast it had been long since i last enjoy high speed cab..
guess wat i reachh vivo at 7pm juz 12 min of cab ride & e cab fee was 15.10
bt e driver said nvm & happy working to me
i was shocked
As for today
nothing much really happen at shop juz shortage of manpowder nia
a new part timer came today
she was damn slow!!
& guess wat e lady boss told us after work
she was a uni student wif scholarship
wwe will like huh???? cant be ba??
sreaming away!!!!!!!!!
& kiat was emo today
guess wat he told us his heart was stolen away by a gal
okay la still can understand how it feel sux totally
he then show us e pic of tat gal
wat can i said
pretty la & cute somemore onli 19 yrs old
if to compare wif all e gal hu i knw
i guess she was will top in e list
gal ar wat i can said nw
hmmm... go for look,follow by $$$$
cant be trusted for sure cuz wen they find better guy they will leave u
dont ever put 100% in relationship
u will get hurt & dissapointment
Don't Leave Me Alone In This Lonely World
2:04 PM
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
omg!! i juz found out today siathis coming week i will be having my lab test & etcthen next week will be my e math 3 which is hopeless cuz i dont even understand a single crap of wat is being teach at e tut at alle speed tat teacher teaching is god damn fast la... i was like blur totallymean tat i havent even started a moment of e math 3 at all not even writting themn e test is nexxt week...look like i gt to pull my sock higher & higher liao...jia you!!! juz agn today wen me & my friend went for lunch breaksaw chen er & her another friendthere she go asking me for CDS agni was like...i told her last week onli nia...so i replyed & tag at her blog & friendster comment so tat she wont forget agn...did she contact Amnesia???oh yea...juz b4 i reach hm from tiong i went to buy 2 soft drink & 8 ice creami m prepare for e war to fight to score for math 3..wait for my gd resultokay i shall start to do some math qns nw b4 it is getting late....
Don't Leave Me Alone In This Lonely World
12:18 PM
Saturday, May 3, 2008
everytime u send me up to heaven all u always do was to give me a push n make me fall into e hell of pain n sorrow maybe i knw tat i had hurt u b4 bt compare to those which i face was much more painful tat wat u hurt..bt i knw tat u will said tat i dont knw abt all this bt u juz got to go ask other guys friend of urs then u can c how they reply u they sure will said i tat guys mad or wat?? ask u for stead for so many time & each time he face was being rejerted by u i dont knw wat else to said.......... my mood was really unstable for nw
Don't Leave Me Alone In This Lonely World
2:45 PM
Friday, May 2, 2008
i shall do 1 quick review of wat happen today as it is getting late liao
anw...wish all of u a happy labour day despite i did not av mine as i was working
okay today i was suppose to work 5 till 9 pm
bt to shortage of staff there i was called in e morning at 11am
which make me very bad mood as i had insufficent of slp at all as i sleep lat e nite b4 playing my psp game
went off to work...starting working & working like a mad bull like tat
lot of ppl going in & out
like those hungry ghost like tat...
l8r arnd 6 like tat
me & alvin ask for 15 break to grab a bite
bt manager said tat cant! as we go off at 8.30 liao
bt we already knw tat it is a lied after all
we work all e way till arnd 10.30pm
which mean we shd av 7 hrs 30 min working
bt then he then state onli 7 hrs
i was damn fk & pised off liao..started my fk up mood liao
u so not going to c it sia.... my mood was so fk then every1 can noticed tat
bt not onli me la....alvin was pised off aso
like tat earn so little bt hurting ur body..as in 2 hand smoke & gastric pain
& i was in gastric pain for e first time i was trembling away
so went off to outside e shop me & alvin waiting for IZ to get off frm work while we chatting away
u knw my voice wen i was damn pised e voice getting louder & louder till every1 can heard it
oh ya then e manager ask IZ come out & expplain to us abt e timing & mention of more pay for me , brian , alvin
i was like this sentence dont knw heard how many time liao... wen i first start working
it wont come truth 1... wat e use of earning so little money n getting ur health hurt!!!
money died liao aso useless rite??
wat e pt of having $$ while we dont av e life to live to spend it??
M I RITE ABT IT??
so guys stop being so tian zhen la...wont happen 1
after which me, alvin , Iz went to harbour mac to had a chat together
all of voice out of then unhappy stuff at work
u shd listen sia.... all e mood was damn fk up
wen busy rite, then u can heard e lady boss shouted buzz table la, serve foods & soup la
then a boss will start to scold alll kind of bad word to us
wat e pt sia.. i dont get it at all... u wan to save $$ at worker then u shd knw tat it will happen shortage of manpower...u may think tat u had all e part time worker heart toward u
bt too bad u had it all wrong
all of e part timer thinking of quitting e jobs liao..even e paul which had juz worked for 2 week aso cant take it...
wen ask boss for bill he will pretend tat he nv heard them or dont ever borther to reply n contine his counting of $$$ wen custmoer complain he will give all to us... y u nv ask for bill & etc...
u can c urself as a customer urself wen u r there.....u can heard me call for a few time bill bt e fking bill wont come...even e customer aso knw tat....juz tat they dont knw tat e guys at cashier is boss bt to e fact la..they wanted to complain is e boss not us as we did wat we can do liao...
1 mmore stuff
guess wat??
the boss said tat after work let go novena there eat??
i was like wth.... we tmr still gt school all this la... plus eat wif u..e foods aso cant digest well wif u nagging at ears..so all rejected him...i guess he juz acting nia... if he really gt e heart to treat us la..he must well give us $20 or $30 we go mac n eat urself la..dont nid to act as a gd boss la.... u r juz as rotted as those robber in ur mind or eeven more worst than tat..
work for 7 hrs still not foods nor break...wat can joke sia...
more worst is tat u gt to take e boss eating infront of u while ur stomach is groaning for foodss...tat will make u go mad
complain to CASE complain shop close down 1
shop wif ratss, ill treat worker & etc
more worst is tat today is public holiday ask me,alvin start work early still dont av double pay nor dinner break , still have to take ur nagging at all time
worst to worst wen ur shop was bussy tat time
e boss gt e time there to count e $$$ , ask us clear e plate which he juz ate, place e fork & stuff
sat down at his office looking at e cammera
more like we r in prison or even more worst than prison la...
wat kind of jobs is this sia...
still smile at us wen they left home!!
how i wish i can juz give them a mask n let them wear dont ever feel like c their facethis shop still can manage its staff is juz by 1 word relationship we had built up wif a manager orelse it is long over...trust me if 1 ppl will to leavve e shopall e part timer will follow to leave
Don't Leave Me Alone In This Lonely World
2:49 PM
Thursday, May 1, 2008
This few days my mood is like having mood swing like tat up & downdont even knw wat iis going on wif myselflife is ppretty mess up totallydue to i had to work & study i was force to maintain my body energy till whole dayshad been 2 day liao.... frm monring 6am till at nite 11pm study then work... body falling apart totallyoh ya ytd ben & jerry giving away free ice cream...man u shd go c e long qeuee damn freaking long..... wan to go get some bt lazy so taste a bit frm my friend...nice laokay...as for work today is like so tight upmy lesson end at 6pm & i gt to report to work at 7pmhow can i rush there sia?? frm tampine to vivo lei...bt i reach there ate something b4 i start worklife really stress up for me....lots & lots of customer esp wen e 15 acjc came in at arnd 9 like tat..OMG!!! they sat at e place where i gt move in e chair & table there..making me gt to wait till they ate finish then can move itit is some mentally n physically training la.... 20 round table 6 square table 12 mental chair, 28 wood+metal chair & 12 wood chair all moved it by myself agn...i was like damn tiring liao... bt no1 juz care...haiz...... maybe 1 day i will work till i faint ??
u had change greatly till i almost dont believe it last time no matter how busy u r bt once u online will leave me a msg to hp bt nw dont av even online u aso wont chat wif me at allhaiz.... my feeling to u is like fading away wen each days passed...... do u know?? more like we becoming stranger once agnbt u aso wont mind losing me a friend as u gt too many friend arnd u less 1 aso wont hurt u at all
Don't Leave Me Alone In This Lonely World
2:18 PM
