Tuesday, March 31, 2009

I'm fking bored w
face computer till sian le
wan to go out yet dunn knw hu to ask
sian!!!!!!
ROAR!!!
i need some breathing air
how i wish tat i could drink wine/beer till i drank nw n remain at tat state n sleep in peace
nw wat i dunn wish to c is my timetable from next semster cause it gt to be long
from 8.30am till 6pm everyday from monday till friday
heard le as sian!!!


Don't Leave Me Alone In This Lonely World
8:34 PM


Monday, March 30, 2009

Have u ever of heard of this phrase " selflessness kill "
have u ever wonder wat this phrase means??
wat it mean by e word "kill" ??
it means by killing another person heart by using feelings

A few days ago 1 of my ggan sister ask me abt it
i was shock abt she asking this qns to me as she knw me well i dunn like to know their love problem as it getting more n more out of my thinking box
example gt gan stead, gan hubby , gan dear & etc
meaning 1 gal can have lot of BF's
well.. she was trying her best to make a big round bt not entering e topic on relationship
bt i knw her so i just make a short cut n asked her wat her problem
she still dare to emmm.. to me n nt replying to me back
then i just make a wild guess she was dumped by her stead a few days ago and i hit e bulleye right on her heart
she was having e mood swing n started nt to trust love
bt then problem arise gt a gan-kor
asked her for stead bt was rejected by her
tat so called gan kor was emo away n she asked me how to solve e problem
dunn need to guess i knw tat she aso like tat gan-kor bt just dun dare to trust & believe him
i told her tat it was simple is either she cut of her contact with tat kor or both of u get tgt
she was huh?huh??huh??
i was pissed off
give her a damn bad scolding in msn
iif dunn like just break it off n remain as friend
dunn keep on dragging on
if 1 day u found tat u dunn like him n gotten a new stead u onli hurting him n wasting his time on u
she replyed me selfishness
dunn bear to do so
i was like damn it!!! y do this?
because of ur so call selfishness u kill a gd guy heart totallly
e worst of it if tat guy love for u turned into hate
tat will be the worst thing happening even the god aso cant help u out
once hate was formed it is really hard to make it gone
trust me sometime it is better to be mean to him nw then to drag on cause u nt helping him to ease the pain bt making tat pain even more worst
tat y there is a phrase said sometimes it is better to give up then hanging on to it
if u continue to let tat guy hangs onto it
the pure n gd heart of his will be gone forever wont ever return back to him & even he turns back into Angel
he wasnt e same as the past as scars had form on his heart
maybe u dunn knw abt this as i didnt tell u before
i had been through this route once
i hated gals from srjc n plmgss
everytime i saw them in their school uniform
my mind become uncontrolled & think tat all gals from tat school were all bitches&slutes
wan to go up to them n give them a tigh slap righ on their face n etcc
if u really dunn wan tat to happpen to him
make up ur mind nw
it's time for u to make a tough decisions
stop everything wen they is still time to do so orelse wen he turned into a devil it is too late
dunn let him suffer


Don't Leave Me Alone In This Lonely World
2:03 PM


Monday, March 23, 2009

Been a week since i last blogged here
life was kind of busy last week as i had been working
from 16 of march till 18 march was working at hougang mall
tat place wat can i said
was a mad place ppl there really make a mess out of e magazine zone
just like mixing up the junk food tgt make me had a sever headaches for wat those neighbour auntiess had make
almost 1000 per day w/o minus e rent n etc
after 3 days my boss send me back to simei mall :D
those days at siimei life was much better than hougang even tot hougang mall gt more pretty gal
bt i prefer those peaceful life at simei

19/3/09
today knew a gal from the stall beside us
her name was yiling age same as me
she was really a nice gal bt just tat i dunn have the chance to ask her for her hp number
as i dunn really have the guts nor courage to do so on the first day
if last time before knowing jiamin tat time
i still dare to get number from gals despite knowing them less than 1 hrs
bt nw my heart was stummed taken a step back tot i know her for 1 whole day
after tat day she didnt come back as she quit tat jobs tat wat i heard from other staff
guess tat if we gt the fact we will meet again 1 day at street
for those who dun knw hu is jiamin
she was tat gal hu spike salt onto my wounded heart with e same word *wait* & *study*
despite i ask her for 3 time for stead
still rmb e first time i ask her was after i know her for just 1 week i was too fast i knw tat
2 time i ask her was after term test she given me with a reply i want to cope with my study first wen after main examintion then we get tgt
3 time i ask her was after main examination tat following week, 1 week before her birthday
guess wat her answer??
" i think we are not suitable for each other
u can find a better gal than me
all the best " after which didnt c her msg nor online anymore
till nw those word said by gwynna n her were graved into my heart n mind
once a wounds forever a wounds
even since those incident happen to me
my trust for gals had been decreasing as the days goes by

22/3/09
To my surprise was tat young lady boss hu came to open e stall next to me
i was stunned
after we spoke to each other from 1 pm till closing arnd 10pm with pauses inbetween
she taught me alots of new working stuff n experiences in relationship n etc
she even offer me a work/try out at her stall at tiongbahru
she was right abt relationship
relationship dunn get into it orelse once u fall into it u will onli gets hurtss n wounds
first thing was to get a degree in study follow by earning $$$
with $$ no scare no gal wan to be with u
wat she said was fact n i was in deep thoughtss n repeating wat she told me inside my mind
can u think of tat??
tat young lady boss was onli 27 n she lives at private housing drive a sport car n earn abt 20k-30k per months
wow!!!!!
oh ya lastly i saw xinmei on sat morning
she was yawning away at simei mrt waiting for friends as her friend was late :p

23/3/09
today is the second lesson of driving
went to the empty field once again
drive a few rounds at there w/o making any mistake till the instructor said let take it into the main road
i was like huh??? he must be joking with me man
bt he was serious abt it
i turned n went onto the road
change gears from gear 1 to gear 2 to gear 3 then gear 4 then gear 5
omg!! 70 km/h
tat fast sia
tat instructor stil said it okay
i was freaking scare till nw
still rmb tat during e last 5 min of lesson tat instructor still wan me to learn how to park e car
i make a mess out of it as it happen too fast le
bt with e help of the instructor i manage to park the car in 5 min time (:


Don't Leave Me Alone In This Lonely World
7:35 PM


Monday, March 16, 2009

Had my first lesson of driving today bt due to in e rush back to work
my head was full of working stuff while driving make a few mistake n let the engine died 3 time as i keep on forgetting to step on the clutch despite the car had stop
kana knocks by the instructor on my head
my leg went cramp after stepping on clutch for 1 hrs of lesson (26 per hrs)
walk to mrt station(bukit gombak) with a limping leg
after which i rush all the way back to hougang mall as jessime take over my place for work from 12 pm till 7pm
i was kind of worry for e amount of $$ inside as cash machine
at the end of work i calculate out tat it was short of 50 cent i top it up for her as i aso last minute ask her for help e
very grateful to her for helping me out
thank a lotss


Don't Leave Me Alone In This Lonely World
11:53 PM


Friday, March 13, 2009

OMG!!
Second post of e day
guess wat i saw wen i just nw went down to withdraw cash for personal use like driving next monday n going
i saw a gal which look exactly like my 1 of my close gal friend
tat close friend i will alway msg her wen examination came n she will accompany me msg throughout e nite and gt once even go mac study tgt tot she was younger than me by 3 yrs
just like my sister bt better than my real sister
and her body size increase alot n further to think abt it
from e stomach size she was pregnant
i was totally stun as in i didnt c her for e past 6 month++ msg her aso didnt reply
i been too kpo i call n msg her n ask her
she replyed asap
tat was nt her bt her jiejie
scare me out of wits siaaa..... thinking if she was pregnant then who else can msg i throughout the nightsss during examination..thinking of tat
if w/o her accompany me throught-out e nights i guess i wont be in poly nw n getting to yrs3 poly
after all i alway last min study e those hu knw me well will knw thiss..
oh ya just nw while taking afternoon nap
my boss called to work again next weeek n i booked my driving le
so i call up my friend luckily someone can help me to work
heng!! cant wait to drive on monday


Don't Leave Me Alone In This Lonely World
9:24 PM


A Few gd news to update here
I clear my semster 2.2 n my gpa increase back to 2.17 liao
heng sia even tot i didnt have high expection of my gpa
i hope tat my gpa will be raise to 2.8 after 3yrs of poly
i receive e msg at 2.20pm at 11 march from 74688
at first i tot tat was starhub promotion i was abt to delete it bt saw exam results and i was pray hard tat i didnt obtain any F inside e result msg
heng heng god answer my pprayer i PASSED!!
NO SUB PAPER!!!! YAYYYY!!!!!

i PASS my basic theory test on 10 march 09 10.30am and obtained PDL
for ppl hu dun knw wat tat --->> PDL stand for provisional driving licence
I can finally start to learn how to drive
next Monday!!! woo.....
cant waittt for tat to happen..... wahahaha... saw xinmei at east point mall from some distance :P
as i was working at east point mall at 2pm
she disappear as she just came to buy bubble tea

12 march today was a great day at working at east point mall as today lots of chio bu at e mall
hehe...still can rmb tat arnd 6.40pm
i saw a miss and she came over to e stall to buy princess magazines
she went away to withdrawn cash
i saw her bag with the sticker arnd the bag e word cabin crew
then i realised tat she was a 空中小姐 dun wonder my eye sight was with her all e time till e she left e mall
her height was arnd 175cm
e way she dress herself was very simple bt yet so outstanding and elegant
she was in light make-up with a black singlet and black pant and high heel of 7cm~9cm i guess
she look just like my dream gal
i wish tat she was my stead
*******************dreamng away************************

Today woke up at 8am
arnd 8.30 headed down to bukit batok driving centre by taxi to meet up with my driving instructor which fiona intro him to me
thanks you (:
pay amount of $$ to him *heartpain*
well...he told me tat make me very happy if fast enough by end of june i shd get my driving license provided i pass my final theory at April
I shd work double hard to pass it in 1 shot
jia you to myself
after which took mrt to enous to meet up with eugenia to go enous driving centre to book a date for e final theory and she apply for her PDL
well...she can start to learn how to drive by tml as her instructor free lohhh !!!
jealous sia!!!!!! ROAR!!!!!
hehe.. gd luck
anw after tat we took cab to enous mrt station as it was rainning heavily she went off to buy stuff to bake while i went to take mrt back
hope tat her kitchen wont be in a mess after she bake
wahaha... she wont c this part of my blog e


Don't Leave Me Alone In This Lonely World
2:57 PM


Monday, March 9, 2009

I know tat i dint blog for sometime as so much things had happen this few days
i aso dunn really rmb them in detail as for which day it happen
firstly my hp spoilt as it cant be switch on anymore n i didnt send it for repair as i really give up on tat nokia hp which i just brought it for like arnd 1 yrrs nah
i lost some of my friend contact inside
anw i worked for e past few day at jelita shopping mall from last friday till ytd
i douth ppl knw where is it located unless u always go holland road
well... tat place really sux
there dunn have food court nor mac
wen u hungry really gt no place to buy foods to eat beside 7-11
so i starve myself on friday didnt eat breakfastt lunch onli ate my dinner at niight
Working there really knw how this working world really nt as easy as wat i think it was
it totally different and friendship really can be seen as no1 bother to buy me foods for e first day after i contacted 5 friends
i given up
as for e second day i take away foods from home to work at 7.30
after work i headed for jackson house to ask him to store song inside my itouch
chat at his room for nearlly 2 hrs+++
arnd 9 plus someone call n was crying on e phone n i didnt have e contact inside my hp
at first i tot it was ghosst or prank call bt ltr found out tat it was michelle
omg!! she was warded to hospital
i was shock n worry as it was first time i heard her cries out of 4 yrs i knw her
so i went to hospital to visit her e next day right after my work at 7.30
accompany her for anrd 1 hrs n left my itouch for her to listen to song so tat she wont be tat boring
for friend hu saw this maybe thinking me n her is tat relationship
bt nope i treat her as little sister or i can said tat i can trust her more than others gal out there
i knw tat i ever been said by jan & tenshi jie before
y i dunn open my heart n share out e secret inside my heart
in e fact i didnt really open out my heart out to my friends esp gals
cause i dun trust n believe in them
if u really wan me to rank them out from e most trust till e least trust
1.tat gal whom i dun knw her name yet bt i see her from my house everyday
2tenshi,xinmei,yiwen,caterine,eugenia,cuimin
3.jan,meiqi,bugis,michelle,jennifer
4.tat grp of sec sch grp which i hang out with
5. the rests of e gals

There was once i opened my heart fully to a girl. we did not have any secrets between each other but sadly in the end i got hurt as things dont always happen the way we want.
despite having a wounded heart, i still tried my very best to trust another girl again. but similarly i am still hurt.
i just want to have a simple and plain love but it seems so hard to achieve.
now, my heart is feeling worse as salt has been added to my wounds. and it really hurts alot..
why every girl i met are the same? - they would always use the word 'wait' as an excuse. dont they know it hurts?


Don't Leave Me Alone In This Lonely World
8:16 PM